Friday, 7 August 2015

St. Enodoc's Chuch, North Cornwall



Last month I visited the beautiful coastline of North Cornwall with one mission in mind.  Setting off from Exmouth, the journey to Daymer Bay, near Rock and Padstow took 1 hour and 45 minutes.  Not a long journey to travel to what always seems to me another country.  Like crossing the Styx, crossing the River Tamar is indeed a journey into a different realm but of the positive kind.  More a country than a county, to visit Cornwall is to visit a land rich in a unique culture and history.  Even the geography, with its wild moorland, Mediterranean fauna and high-thicketed lanes, prone to sudden sea-mists lends a sense separateness on the senses.    However, despite my assertion above, there was one aspect of mortality that I had in mind when visiting the secluded St Enodoc's Church, Trebetherick, and that was to visit the grave of Sir John Betjeman, the former Poet Laureate.

Betjeman conjures up for me, memories of O-Level English Literature and being introduced to a poet who ought not to make any connection with me.  He was from a privileged background, wrote about churches, architecture and made middle–age observations on middle-class life.  How on Earth could this man make any connect with a fifteen-year old boy interested only in science fiction, fantasy and music?  But he did.  His poems made a direct connection not only with me but with most of the other students in the class.  His poems were witty (Upper Lambourne) and somehow tinged with sadness and regret (A Child Ill, Norfolk).  They also had a subversive quality, (Slough for example) which would appeal to most youths “Come friendly bombs and fall on Slough/It isn’t fit for humans now”.  Despite his genteel and toffish exterior, he had a subversive quality and embodied  a conservatism with a small c with his unique sensibility towards the aesthetic and spiritual quality of buildings.  Betjamen bemoaned the destruction of a pastoral and historic Britain by face-less bureaucrats, small-town aldermen and city-planners whom he argued, had  ripped  the hearts out of towns and cities, replacing them with sanitised and homogenised functional architecture which in turn sapped the individuality and spirituality from the inhabitants of such places and thus achieving more destruction to post-war Britain than the Luftwaffe had ever done to challenge the national psyche and sense of identity. 

His poems were beautifully constructed and accessible and that is perhaps one of the reasons they remain so popular among people from all backgrounds and why Betjeman remains still in the public memory.   That first O-Level year I studied Betjeman, Robert Frost, Edwin Muir and Edward Thomas and while I admired the qualities of all the poets and respected their craft, only Betjeman and Frost remained affixed to my memory.  They taught me that profundity need not reside in elaborate words but in simple, straight-forward language. 

St. Enodoc’s Church is small and unassuming; a fitting resting place for a man who wrote so fondly of Cornwall and Devon but more particularly of the dividing line between land and sea. Only on revisiting his poetry prior to journeying to Cornwall did I realis just how much, in terms of binary opposites, images and themes,  sea and sand, water and land, the imaginary and the real recur, throughout his work.

  

The chapel overlooks the lovely Daymer Bay and access for me that day was achieved via a golf course.  From this approach one can only see the churches almost stooping steeple rising from the grassland which is once surreal and intriguing.  While warily looking out for low flying golf balls, I negotiated the course and within five-minutes was at the church’s entrance with its unusual Lychgate made from the local stone and slate with the coffin shelf being placed at its centre rather than at one side.



 As one walks through the entrance, John Betjeman’s grave is immediately to the right.  It is modest yet ornate, containing flourishes in the Victorian and Edwardian tradition.








It was a beautifully warm Cornish summer day and the view from the graveyard over the bay and St. Minver lowlands was stunning.  I was not alone.  During the thirty-minutes I spent exploring the churchyard and the church, at least twelve other people arrived.  They all visited Betjeman’s grave and had their photograph taken there.  Access to the church is also by the South West Coastal path and later learned that there is a Sir John Betjeman walk which I assume many of these people had taken.






A while ago I posted Betjeman’s poem ‘Norfolk’.  I feel it fitting to post ‘Cornish Cliffs’.

(c) Stephen Evans 


Cornish Cliffs    - John Betjeman

Those moments, tasted once and never done,
Of long surf breaking in the mid-day sun.
A far-off blow-hole booming like a gun-

The seagulls plane and circle out of sight
Below this thirsty, thrift-encrusted height,
The veined sea-campion buds burst into white

And gorse turns tawny orange, seen beside
Pale drifts of primroses cascading wide
To where the slate falls sheer into the tide.

More than in gardened Surrey, nature spills
A wealth of heather, kidney-vetch and squills
Over these long-defended Cornish hills.

A gun-emplacement of the latest war
Looks older than the hill fort built before
Saxon or Norman headed for the shore.

And in the shadowless, unclouded glare
Deep blue above us fades to whiteness where
A misty sea-line meets the wash of air.

Nut-smell of gorse and honey-smell of ling
Waft out to sea the freshness of the spring
On sunny shallows, green and whispering.

The wideness which the lark-song gives the sky
Shrinks at the clang of sea-birds sailing by
Whose notes are tuned to days when seas are high.

From today's calm, the lane's enclosing green
Leads inland to a usual Cornish scene-
Slate cottages with sycamore between,

Small fields and tellymasts and wires and poles
With, as the everlasting ocean rolls,
Two chapels built for half a hundred souls. 







Monday, 27 July 2015

KEEPING A NOTE-BOOK TO HAND

Carrying a note-book with you at all times is an invaluable way of preserving any thoughts, phrases or ideas for your work.  If your memory is similar to mine you may find that you have a great idea, a word or a phrase and then it's gone within minutes (even seconds!) despite assuring yourself that you will remember it or will write it down when your home.







A note-book is a great way of preventing this and the ensuing frustration of forgetfulness.  I usually buy a pack of cheap note-books and write on the cover the date I started it.  I record the number of books I've used that month.  In it I scribble and jot down thoughts, reflections, ideas, in fact anything that springs to mind and I think may be of use later when writing. I write down the date I made these notes.   Some of the notes are never used while others form the foundation for a poem.  I can't emphasise the usefulness of carrying a note book.  Oh, and a pen or pencil comes are pretty handy too!





Friday, 24 July 2015

WRITING POETRY: FINALISING WORK

Hi All,

I've been busy over the last months working on a number of poems and 'honing' them so to speak.  I don't know about how you approach writing your poems but I tend to work on several at the same time. 

I get down my initial thoughts- sometimes there's also a concept involved in there but not always, and then work on them.  Sometimes there's an impasse and I leave them for several days (sometimes several weeks) and return to them again and pick up from where I left off.  I find that it is amazing how the break focuses the mind and can solve the problem you've encountered with the poems construction whether its word-choice, or scansion (scan). Some poems demand more time on them than others.  Some poems have been started eight-nine months ago, while others have been written and posted within a couple of days.  There's no magic formula and perhaps some poems demand time to ferment or grow as they are actually mirroring our own thought-processes and emotional responses.

Finalising the poem is also tricky concept.  When is a poem truly finished?  I'm presently working on six poems to differing degrees. When do you feel a poem is actually 'fit for purpose'?  Tricky...

When I used to teach poetry, I used to show my students a copy of the draft manuscript of Wilfred Owen's' Dulce et Decorum est'. They were amazed at the fact that the poem had taken several different forms and versions before becoming the famous poem we recognise today. 





 I hoped that this would help them understand that:

1. poetry rarely is the product of some muse or divine inspiration that allows us to write perfectly formed and finished verse (this equally applies to prose) writ on stone and inviolate like the Ten Commandments

2. poetry is graft and poems (and prose) have to be worked upon and may undergo many revisions and changes until the writer is satisfied that s/he has created a semblance of a poem, a finished version 

3.  even the great poets had to work on their poetry.  This was a great confidence-boost for my students who often thought that great and skilled poets could merely bang out a fantastic poem at whim. I should imagine this rarely happened.  The students always felt more confident about their own creations after this and saw the process of revision as a vital part of the 'craft'.

When I'm writing, I rely on a feeling that it may be good enough to at least be work in progress.  I often post poems that are work in progress and then return to them and revise later. You may have seen revisions in my poems when I've re-posted them on the blog. 

A great way of achieving a degree of quality control is to show your work to a trusted friend or friends whose opinion you respect and you know will give you honest and constructive feedback.  Never be afraid of asking for and acting on advice - it's invaluable and has helped me many times.




TAKING A WALK

Those times when I'm dearly in need of inspiration or at least some space to collect my thoughts, I find a short walk often helps. I don't try and force a thought, they seem to naturally arise from the walk, perhaps, the cadence of our steps naturally match the rhythms of our thoughts - but a short stroll generally works wonders.  Again, I take my notebook and record the idea before I forget!

I'd be really interested to hear if walking works for you or if you've found have any other activities help in the same way.  Please keep your suggestions respectable...  :-) 





APPS



There are also some useful Apps for mobiles that act as recorders for dictation.  These are especially useful if you want to trial some of your work for their sounds (for example assonance and alliteration) and rhythm. Reciting to the machine and then playing it back really does help you work on the sound dimension to your work.

Friday, 10 July 2015

Floral Dress

Floral Dress


That floral dress
You wore last night
On one of those rare occasions
When we make an effort to go out
I saw again today
In a photograph I'd  taken of 
You six years before
That very dress!
Revisiting this other women
Foolishly I thought I'd captured 
Revealed to me from darkness
Your inner-light
The camera seldom shares
Your singular  lack of vanity
The selfless frugality
You wear upon yourself

When it comes to paying the bills and
Catering for the children's needs
Their constant guardian at night
Your floral dress, that photograph
Your life-long love letter to us all
Shames every line I scheme to shape
Or any words 
I could ever hope to write.


© Stephen Evans 2015

A Coffee Moment



A Coffee Moment

Gazing at my coffee cup
Two-thirds empty
While row on row of wooden isles
The other customers 
Of me indifferent, live their lives
Consumed within their separate worlds
While I serve up these lines.


© Stephen Evans 2015

Thursday, 2 July 2015

GREETINGS!

Greetings!.  Three recent poems I've been working on.  Apologies for the silences as I think these blogs are meant to be populated with such revelatory information such as what I ate for breakfast and what really "sucks" - I'm pretty tardy in such matters and can only crave your indulgence and understanding.

 BTW toast and wasps are the answers to the above but not necessarily in the correct order.

Many thanks for your positive comments on the poems I posted fairly recently which is always appreciated.




Wednesday, 3 June 2015

WALL

WALL

On the first day I stood beneath you,
Your height hoarding the air
The sky no more than a bruise
That threatened thunder
Your top crowned with glass
Like the coronet of the king of Walls
Shark's teeth sharp and snarling down, 

Daring me climb and I must admit I was afraid
But promised to return

On the second day
I brought rope, pick and axe
Only to find you were made of the purest crystal
Your surface smooth and
Mirroring my frustration
As hour, upon hour, upon hour
Of axe and pick and cursing
Hour, upon hour, upon hour
Not one impression could I make,
Not one foothold could I gain
Into your imperious, insolent heart and
Your spikey grin wider than ever
All attempt to climb you postponed
I vowed I would return

On the third day
Spade and shovel I brought
To burrow beneath you
I'll bury you yet

(c) Stephen Evans

A BUXTON SNOW SCENE 1906


You stare back at me
From the photograph's sepia season
Forever frozen in winter



I trace your dark tracks strung out across
A sledding scene of nineteen hundred and six,
Atop the Slopes near Buxton park where the
Serpentine is stilled, its coils, cowed,
Inanimate, amid the season's chill.


Rows of children standing stiffly to attention,
Already cocooned in adulthood,
Wrapped warmly in parental wear,
And weighted down in bonnets and caps,
Stare at me from their walled-in lives,
Hung and framed like inmates in an ice-berg cell.


The modern convention of the inane smile has not
Yet corrupted the sensibilities of this scene,
As they pose for the photograph which takes an age to
Compose and capture,  their faces, pale, stern,
Frowning forever
Compressed upon the glacial plate,  
Yet on closer inspection, 
Through the camouflage of conformity,
Eyes etched with excitement,
Erupt and crater the still decorum.


You wait to take your turns like
Patient dominoes all in serried row,
Black on white and white on black,  
Peppering and dotting the all-prevailing snow,
A world uniform and balanced,
You grip your tiny sledges, 
Vulnerable,
Amid the winter's bleak attack.
At risk of being blown away,
At the whim of wind or fate,
Like leaves fallen haphazardly,
Your prints pattern the tilting ground,
All  crows' feet stitching amid
The raven’s ratcheting dance.

Senseless to your fate and the decade ahead
Your frozen smiles explode and
Strafe this frigid moment,
You thrill as you anticipate your reckless,
Raw descent,
Cut, tear and scissor the pallid quilt,
Which you forever rent,
Headlong, downwards, ever sliding,


Unhindered by the sombre angel yet to be built.

Stephen Evans June 2014


Wednesday, 13 May 2015

PACKING AWAY

Packing Away

Today I packed my memories of you away
Every last one 
Better stacked safely on the shelf
Than see them thrown into a sack
To drown
I moth-balled them and there they'll stay
Like a child stores away the toys someday
He eventually outgrows.

I close the cupboard firmly tight
Stare at it, frown: still work to do
I scrape the varnish from the wood 
And run my hands across the grain
Its smoothness softly shares my skin
Then take the paint I'll use as coat
But just as I begin.  Stop. 

I prefer it plain. 

(c)  S Evans 2014

Friday, 8 May 2015

WEDDING PHOTOGRAPHER




WEDDING PHOTOGRAPHER

My name's Charlie and I'm fifty-one
I've got four daughters and I've got a son
I've had three wives, more of less
and lots of other women when I've transgressed

I photograph weddings for my trade
and document the moment when your vows are made

Wedding photographer, now give me a smile
Wedding photographer, we may be here a while
Wedding photographer, please stand over there
Wedding photographer just relax, don't stare
Wedding photographer, now say cheese
Wedding photographer, all face right if you please...


My first marriage lasted over twenty years
A great deal of that time was spent in tears
I gambled and I womanised quite a lot
And drank heavily, I was quite the sot
Judith finally left me and took the girls away
And the divorce papers landed on the very next day

Wedding photographer, more to the side
Wedding photographer, please re-kiss the bride
Wedding photographer, bunch up some more
Wedding photographer, now lift her off the floor
Wedding photographer, no one make a sound
Wedding photographer, throw your bouquet to the crowd...

My second wife Penny was highly strung
She was needy and possessive and awfully young
Her parents disapproved of me and it led to a fight
I ended up cruising bars every night
It seemed like it was over before it hardly begun
She left me for a policeman but she gave me a son.

Wedding photographer, let's have mum and dad
Wedding photographer, please don't look so sad
Wedding photographer, the bride and her maid
Wedding photographer, don't stand too near the shade
Wedding photographer, just five more shots to take
Wedding photographer, now pretend to cut the cake

Yasmin, my third wife was a mail order bride
Packed and packaged and fragile inside
Once we'd been together for almost two years
I came home to find she'd disappeared
With the help of a PI I tracked her down
Where she'd hooked up with a woman in a north eastern town
Seems she'd had this girlfriend all along
I was too busy with my weddings to ever think she'd do me wrong

Wedding photographer, now give me a smile
Wedding photographer,I like the natural style
Wedding photographer, give them some room
Wedding photographer, let's have the best man with the groom
Wedding photographer, you'll want a close up of the ring
Wedding photographer, you're my first wedding this spring

I guess it would easy to be bitter and mean
And cynical and twisted by the whole marriage scene
But I'm a sucker for a wedding with ordinary folk
And a crowd of happy people full of cheer and love and hope
So when I see a newly wed husband and wife
I sincerely wish them both a wonderful life

Wedding photographer, try not to frown
Wedding photographer, I really like your gown
Wedding photographer, you won't know I'm here
Wedding photographer, I work through the year
Wedding photographer I'll re-take it again
Wedding photographer we might just avoid the rain


(c) Stephen Evans 2015

Tuesday, 27 January 2015

EVOCATION

It isn't your body that still beckons
From the eyelid of the doorway
Or the mischief and promise
In your sigh and your smile
It isn't your  warmth in the private of  places
Or your eyes' dilation at various stages
Not the coupling of our heart-beats
Nor the whisper of your skin

It is none of these.

What most  visits my memory and recalls you again
Is the smell of your hair when we kissed in the rain.


(c)  S.  Evans

Monday, 26 January 2015

RIDING ON THE WHIRLWIND

Some find it in a powder
Some find it in a bottle 
Some find it in their children 
And some in Aristotle

Some find it in the fire
Some find it in the frost
Some find it in the bedroom
Some find it on the cross

We're always searching
Searching all the time
Riding on the whirlwind
Reigning in the rain

Some write it in a poem
Some sing it in a song
Some preach it from the pulpit 
And some just bite their tongue 

Some find it in the desert 
Some find it in a book
Some never find it
However hard they look 

We're always searching
Searching all the time
Riding on the whirlwind
Reigning in the rain. 

(c) S Evans 2014

HAPPINESS



Do not  bring me happiness
Let such thoughts pass quickly on
It's been  banished for so long,
I'd barely recognise its smile.

I think of  its cool in the summer's heat or
Its warmth in winter's night
As one thinks of a ship that has sailed
Out of sight or forbidden fruit too
Tall to reach however laden
The bend of the bough.

If  you  could ever  liberate
This death camp husk  from
Its starved  and shrivelled host
If you ever  unlock that leaden chest
Beware...
When freed
Happiness is too rich a treat
On which to ever  feed

Your well-intentioned intervention
Would likely  kill than cure
Your generous ministrations
Would choke  at birth
The patient heart in me.

Instead... I beg
Wean me from these midnight  dreads with Hope
Droplets of silver rather than tears
A finger tip  measure to my lips
Over the months,  perhaps the years,
Until at last  I'm ready to taste happiness again.

(c) S.  Evans 2014

SCAN



SCAN

Polo mint capsule
Starch white
Drained of rainbows
Receives me stiffly
Through its
Stargate portal
Reduced to worm-hole vision
Mirrors place me in reflective mood
A tube hangs out of me
Horizontal mind floats
Headphones buzz
A disconnected voice shrills if I'm OK
My name scratched out by static
She could be in the control room
Booth or Houston USA,
She could be in Heaven but
Sounds like HAL
Go through the checks
Left hand holds switch
Press in emergency
For immediate attention
In case we have a problem
Brace myself for lift-off
The chamber shakes I'm aping Heston
I'm Hurt in Alien isolation
My chest feels heavy
Pregnant with dread
Lead thoughts scrape along the
Trenches of the brain
Like x-wing in Death Star searching
For elusive port
Eyes closed to try repose
Nose-free zone
Senses are vacuumed up
Shrink wrapped
Laid bare
A rose in suspended animation
Would smell as sweet- less
No perfume pricks the air
Round and round
I'm tumble-dried three cycles,
Itch I dare not scratch
Tectonic plates of neck and back
Must stay still, all animation suspended,
Status in stasis,
Mouth dry and open to
Aid respiration
Oxygen ingestion,
This wordless O my final stage of examination
All metal removed from me
Floating in my own tin can
Click click slick
The music slides sideways into head
 REM lullaby my dread
"If you believed they put a man on the Moon,
Man on the Moon."

© Stephen Evans 2013

Sunday, 11 January 2015

VISITING MY MOTHER IN A HOME AT CHRISTMAS

You're a jigsaw puzzle without a picture on the box
All in a thousand pieces with one piece missing
The instruction sheet long lost
You can't be fixed or reassembled
Your mind is a shattering of moments
Scattered across your pillow and beyond
Unravelling beyond recollection like
A tapestry torn into a thread
That twists into a question mark
For which there are no answers

Your open mouth
Clams in the past
Lying on your side like
Some blubbering creature
Washed up by the tide
I feel within this stagnant room
The siren calling me to sea
Return me to lost innocence
Intern me in your mammal womb

I hold your hand and smooth
Your thinning hair
Aware of the unwanted gift you always bring
Acutely at this time of year
From the many you have given me
From the moment you caught
My first breath and taught
My mute tongue how to sing
And bound me to your dominant cord
That never could diminish
Determined we to ever duel
Or duet to the finish

The silence now your parting gift
Allows me to reflect upon
The gradual ending of a life
And selfishly contemplate my own

From down the corridor
A radio plays a song of praise
Great Joy and Tidings to the World!
The singing ends without applause

As no more words can be said
I scratch these lines beside your bed

(c) Stephen Evans